If you saw me on the street without knowing anything about me, you’d never know I had Chronic Kidney Disease (CKD). You’d never know I had a stroke. You’d never know I have diabetes. But I do. The other day, it just cracked me up when I met a doctor who I was consulting to for the first time. When he came into the room, he just looked at me with some surprise and told me I was not what he was expecting at all. He had read my chart, looking at all the crazy stuff that has happened within the past year, and I guess he had formulated some kind of decrepit old man, who looked like he had been run over about ten times. Possibly with my skin peeling off my bones or something. But no, he said I look very very good for someone with all the conditions I have.

I know you’re wondering, “what does this have to do with anything?” I just want to point out that what you see may not be what it is. You cannot look at me and say I am healthy. More than that, you cannot just look at me and know what kind of person I am. It just amazes me how you can have a physically beautiful person, and yet they are so ugly if their personality is mean and cruel. I always look at the person. I see the whole. However, I do have the superficial moments when I rate beauty by how you look. But honestly I look at the whole.

That’s why for once, I’m Totally digging this new show called True Beauty. If you’ve missed it, it’s a show about ten contestants who think they are entering a reality show contest to see who is the most beautiful. Six women and four men will live together and compete in these “competitions” and be eliminated. What they don’t know is how they’re Really being judged. Instead of being judged by how they perform in each competition, they are also being judged on how they are on the inside. This test includes things like giving to a charity or perhaps just helping someone out. They are also graded on how they are during these competitions. Don’t be a liar!

I love this show because these people are completely clueless and they are so full of themselves. In the end, I suppose I wouldn’t mind if they all fell on their faces from being so full of themselves. I have to thank Ashton Kutcher and Tyra Banks for this show. I wonder who Really thought of this.

After judgement, and when they are eliminated, the ousted member is told the real reason for the show, and how they were Really being tested. I think perhaps they could probably let them down a little easier, it does seem like a blow to the ego, however, some of the things those contestants do Really Really deserve I think.

You have got to check this show out. Even if you don’t like reality shows, if you’re mean like me and want to see people fall who deserve it, you’ll like it.